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Hey guys...

So, the longtime running baby_seale xanga site is coming to a close.  But fear not my fellow xangites...i've a new site.  Due to some spiffy advice from a pastor friend of ours, denny and i decided to end our own xangas and make one together.  Consider this your warning...i won't post here anymore but i won't close it down for a little while just so no one misses this post and agonizes over my disappearance.

It's pretty sweet.  All ya'll should read and subscribe and tell us how cute we are together...(it's true).  Anyway the new site is Walking_together_with_Him ....hope to see ya'll there.

rumor has it that i'm engaged...

rumor is wrong...for now

During my first year of the bi, i was a greeter for sights and sounds. One day at work, i was talking to an older woman and she was asking me about my future plans.  i told her what i wanted to do and assured her that it wasn't ministry...my dad is a pastor and i've been in the business a long time.  her reply was eloquent, she was a pastor's kid too and she ended up marrying a pastor.  she then gave me the reference to a Bible verse and i left.  i told stina about the story later on and she said, "so whats the verse?" i went and looked it up and could not understand how it was applicable or why that verse came to her mind because of the fact that i didn't want to marry a pastor.  stina couldn't understand it either.  But now, it makes perfect sense.  It's taken nearly 2 years but it finally makes sense.

The verse?: Phil 1:6 "He Who has begun a good work in you will be faithful to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus."

i'm moving in with dennis and his family in 8 days. we'll be staying there until nov 9th when we both come to my house for a month.  And then most likely, back up to pa. God has really blessed us and provided above and beyond.  denny already has a job and i've been guarenteed one when i get there.  After we get back from my house, i'll be looking for a federal job, an apartment, and hopefully doing online correspondance courses from moody.  Things are moving rather fast-paced but i'm enjoying it. Seems that God is working out that very verse in my life.  Like i stated in my earlier post,  i've always needed to know what's going on and lately i've been scared because i don't...He is faithful and He will complete what He has started in me.  i need to sit back and enjoy the ride.

PS...Pray for hannah.  she'll have surgery on the 12th of october for her adenoids.  Praise God, they think this will stop her from being tired all of the time.  Just keep the entire situation in prayer.

Isn't it amazing how God redirects our plans?  Look at Proverbs 16:9 "A man plans his way but the Lord directs his steps."  How very true i have found that verse to be in my life. 

dennis and i have made so many plans since we started dating.  Most of them haven't come to pass in the way we thought they would.  But, God made plans too, and His plans tend to overcome our's.  The thing that i am amazed at (though i shouldn't be) is how much better His ideas are then mine and denny's were.  It's like, denny and i can come up with the best human logic imaginable, work in all the factors and still, we come up short.  

 "Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men." 1st Cor. 1:25

i'm so excited...

Since i was 7 years old i knew what i wanted to do with my life.  When bush sr. lost to clinton in 92, i knew that i had to save the world politically.  Hence, i've always had a plan of exactly how my life was going to work.  Now?  i'm headin' full throttle into life and i'm scared out of my mind because for once, i fully realize that i've no control over what God does next.  i've never had any control...but i always fooled myself into believing that i did.  Now i know and i conceed.  Pray for me though, i don't want to be a back seat driver.

So i figured you guys were due for an update...

Just about everything about my 15 day venture was wonderful.  i fell more in love with the man that i want to marry and i fell in love with his family as well.

i was only supposed to be there for 6 days but his parents offered to extend my ticket!  i LOVE those people.  The rest of his family was amazing too--his grandparents and justin, katie, holly, tyler and brant were so much fun.  i had a blast lightsaber fighting his brothers, golfing with him and his dad and shooting with the majority of his family.

Leaving almost tore my heart out.  i didn't think it would be that bad because i knew i would see him again in only 23 days.  we went 84 over the summer therefore 23 days was nothing.  But it was terrible.  i suppose it shows you how much more my feelings have developed for him.  i love that man.  Leaving him felt like i was leaving my very heart.

And since i've been home, i've been rather depressed because i'm apart from him...and because of circumstances beyond my control, today has been an abnormally hard and long day.  While i was crying and venting to my sweetheart on the phone, i also spoke a little bit to my second mother who could sense that something was wrong right away...i love that woman.  Anyway, after i got off the phone, denny and his parents started talking about the next time i come up there (september 30th) and they think i should stay for more then just the weekend (which was the plan) and his dad is once again offering to extend my ticket.  What a blessing!  Just what i needed.  Jehovah Asah Oto Od Pa'am!

If you guys would just pray about this for us.  Jobs and money have to be worked out a bit in order for all of this to go right.  Lots of plans have changed in the past couple of weeks...i'm sure that i'll be letting ya'll know about such things when they are a little more set in stone.  But please pray...we need money and both of us need jobs.

i leave you with pictures of my new amazing family.

The best part about being in scranton, was being with the love of my life, my best friend, my hero, my heartbeat.  he is the best man i know and i am so very blessed to be able to call him my own.